WTF

Have you ever felt a person in a higher-up position purposely want to point a finger at you?
He has passed judgement based on assumption. And I wanted to make a good impression in front of this specific higher-up. I have a lot of respect for him. He was part of the initial squad that actually built up the company.
You can say my path was set and I was just picked up and dropped on another path to save someone else. I winged it. It has been a tough path.
But the project with which I got to sit at the table with him is a fucked up one. I was pulled into it suddenly. And the sad thing is I have been putting in a lot of effort on this project. No one sees it. And there is no way for me to even show it. Very fucked up position to be in.
I can’t even blame him. If I was in his position and saw a version of an employee that I come across as, I would also question that employee. Only difference is, I would have seen the bigger picture. The reason why that employee has been portrayed like that.
That employee’s current leader has instructed that employee to stand their ground. To be the wall. So who else will that employee listen to? Of course their leader. So it is what it is. I have to take the bullets.
I have always said, my first impressions are a hit or a miss. This one sadly is a miss. I have really been giving it my all with this project. And even after that being judged as incompetent, makes you feel sick.
But if it is meant to change, God will change it for the better. It still hurts being misunderstood. But everyone is not going to like you in this world. And that in no way changes who you truly are. Do not let it get to you.
Anyways, at the end of the day, what God thinks is the only thing that matters. I’m not going to let anyone get me down. My spark is already with God, it got taken away from me with Benji boy. So what have I got to lose anyways.
Life was so off I had to actually put my heart and soul for safe keeping in my puppy. And now God took that away from me. I’m just so tired, I miss my puppy so much. I could deal with all this shit because of my puppy.
My dog is right there beside me, I know. But I want him back. God please send him back, I know you can. I know he will come back, I don’t know how but he will.
This is not the end of our earth story Benji. I know the day will come, either to take me to the other side or to spend time together on earth and then leave. Come back multiple times Benji boy. Let’s do this!
See you soon Benjamin, woof woof.
For now, come with me to office and bark at everyone like you always did!