2023

Let’s look back on the year 2023. It had quite a few highs and some really low lows. And right now I am in my happy place with my dog. It has been a really wild ride this year. And honestly, this has been the first year where I can’t wait for the year to end.

I know nothing is going to change on 1^st Jan 2024, but I still just can’t wait for that day. So, let’s walk through the year in sequence.

I had major successes. Then I had a huge dose of being targeted by the people I trusted. Nothing I did was with malice.

Everything was pure-hearted and to protect myself. Only I knew what I was going through and I had to defend myself. But the mental torture I have been through with the targeting is something else.

It was excruciating, physically and mentally. I had no idea they could do this to me. I liked them a lot but now I see they are not for me. All my friends leave me, not because I did something to them, but on behalf of someone who they think I did something to.

Now I am back in reality, it is the 31^st of December 2023. In addition to all this, the family mental torture continues. It was really hard the past couple of months. I had no downtime for my mind. On every side there were attacks on my sanity.

I’ve realised that I need to build a life of my own that is only mine. I need to focus on me. This cannot be it for me. I do not want to be some side character who is always there to fall back on with nothing going on for herself.

I’m still going to be there but I’m not putting my life on the back burner anymore. People may laugh thinking I’m dramatic but I lost 4 years of my life where I could have focused on myself. I could have really sorted out what I wanted in life.

But it is what it is. I am starting now. I know what I want and where I would like to see my life. So, I will work towards it. No more existing, I am going to focus on living.

So 2023, can’t wait to bid farewell to you! Goodbye!