Finding Yourself

It’s been a while since I felt like myself, two years to be specific. People I trusted killed a part of me, or so I thought. But now I realise, they will never get the satisfaction of taking anything away from me.

Infact I gained a lot. For instance, I gained insight into how strong I am mentally. I have received emotional blow after emotional blow, seems like it never ends. But, here I am, still standing. Still clinging on to hope, hope for a better today and a better tomorrow.

I survived and still survive a den of snakes, day in and day out, wherever I go. But now I can say I don’t survive, I thrive and excel in their midst. I’ve been bit a number of times, but now the wounds have healed.

When they bite me again, I don’t get hurt, they do. Their fangs are no match for my thick skin. They will never touch my pure self ever again. Never ever again.

With all the battles I’ve faced, surprisingly I never became one of them to survive. I just put on a lot of armour. Which sadly led to me losing touch with myself. I was just an armour-clad zombie for way too long.

But not anymore, I’m waking up to my true self again. The armour is still right in place, but my soul shines through.

Whatever life throws at me, I will face. I will strive to make my Heavenly Father proud of me. When my last day comes, I hope I am a soldier of God in my next life. Probably all these trials on earth are base camp for a war that needs to be fought in another realm of life.

And maybe, only the soldiers that the Heavenly Father sees potential in are dealt such hands during earthly life. So, let’s walk through the battlefield towards our final destination and slay all the trials that try to end us before our time.

No more hiding, it is our time to shine.