Arrived At Destination – Confidence

I think the time has come for me to accept that I am that good.

It is not potential anymore; I’m way past potential; I have reached the destination. And thriving without realising it.

Take for instance, my previous job. I was giving the reins of my career to people who wanted me to stay behind them. Picture this image most people have seen online – a baby lion in front, with its mother walking behind it. But let’s switch up the dynamic a bit to not-so-motherly. I’m the adult lion and the people screwing me over are the young cub.

Well, not anymore. I am going to own this confidence that was always there and cannot be shunned anymore. Just because I stopped earning, I stepped back. But why did I do that? I have tied self-worth to earning capability. Well, no more. I am that big now; there is no going back.

This hit me smack in the face when I was out for dinner with family. The restaurant staff looked at me for everything. And then I started looking back on certain real-life incidents.

Taking the Fortuner out alone with my sister. Everyone had confidence in me except me. Why? I have no idea why I keep making myself small.

Is it easier? Less responsibility? Afraid of failing? No self-worth? Think everyone is better than me? Am I not good enough? – I kept asking myself these questions. Why has it taken me so long to stand up for myself?

Then I realised I always wanted to make the other person feel comfortable. I would say I don’t want to outshine them. I don’t want unnecessary attention. Well, doing this got me walked on all over.

Now I shine brightly; I finally am just going to be my true self. No more shrinking myself. I will own my confidence and sparkle brightly.