Broken

“Minseok, no one believes me.”

“I believe you. You don’t need anyone else.”

Both of us were seated on the couch. Min-Min had his arm on my shoulders and we were staring at my phone screen.

Tears started rolling down my cheeks. It wasn’t driven by emotions because I had reached the stage of being dead inside. He took the phone from my hand and kept it aside.

“Mackenzie, let them go…”

“I have let them go but it still hurts…”

“I want to end them”, he said through gritted teeth. I turned to look at his face and I was taken aback. I had never seen Minseok so angry. His jaws were clenched and his eyes had a wild look in them.

“Babe, don’t be angry”, I said through sobs and kissed his cheek.

“They are horrible people and I haven’t even met them. I can’t begin to imagine how you feel”, he said and hugged me closer.

“I would’ve walked through fire for them”, I said and this brought on another bout of sobs.

“I have no one Min”, I said still crying.

“Kenzie, listen to me, you have me forever. I will stand by your side forever.”

We sat on the couch until I had no more tears left to cry. He hugged me the entire time and kept telling me he will never leave me. Benjamin and Whiskey sensed I was not okay and stayed by my side on the floor. Both of them kept licking my feet every now and then.

Jin quickly prepared instant noodles for dinner. He put on a Run BTS episode for us to watch. I could not follow what was going on as my mind was too numb. He knew I was too exhausted to pay attention to the show. But he suggested that we watch the show just to distract my mind.

It did help. Watching RM, Suga, Jin, Hobi, Jimin, V and Kookie fooling around did give my mind and heart a break from the heartache.

I fell asleep on the couch in Minseok’s arms. It was a numb sleep that one gets after you’ve cried your soul to rest.